A haiku about this past week:
Long nights in the lab
Trying to enjoy it all
Because this is it.
I have to keep reminding myself that I need to be excited about all the work for my collection. This isn't just another project! It really hasn't hit me that I will be done after this semester. Honestly, I'm kind of sad that my time at Kendall is ending. There's a reason that I chose to stay here my senior year and not go to FIT. Kendall has a very special place in my heart and I have developed greatly on a personal and professional level over the last four years. I've made such close friends and have learned a lot about myself. During my freshman year, I was extremely shy and had a hard time socializing with people I was unfamiliar with. While this is still the case in some situations, and it takes me a little while to open up to others, I have grown leaps and bounds when it comes to socializing. I just feel more comfortable around people. Maybe this doesn't seem like it's related to my capstone but it is. With my theme being self portraiture, I am trying to convey a message of transitioning. When I journaled about where I felt I was last August, I felt like this year was about transition. I am transitioning into a career, out of college (and maybe out of school forever...we'll see), but with transition/change comes growth. I plan to have each look from my collection become more and more colorful and vibrant to represent the growth I have made during college, but also as a reminder to myself that I will continue to grow. I won't lie, I'm a little nervous about what my life will be like post-college. I know that this comes from not knowing exactly where I will find work, but I have to keep reminding myself that I will find something and I will be okay. This battle between the anxiousness about the unknown, and the logic that is trusting I will find my way through this transition is represented in a contrast between the use of straight, linear, inorganic elements combined with very organic, amoebic shapes and lines.
I am still painting on my garments, but plan to play around with trim on top of where I paint as a way to "paint" with trim. The tools I have to use as a fashion designer are much different than those of a painter, so I am merging the two worlds by using media from both industries. Van Gogh's paintings have this indescribable quality to them, where I feel like I get to know him when I look at his self portraits. The hard part about taking inspiration from his self portraits is that it is difficult to express exactly why his self portraits connect with me. Right now, I just hope that when you look at my collection you feel like you get to know a part of me. Whether or not you can verbalize what it is about me that you learn.
As a formal update on my collection, I have really been thinking more conceptually the last two weeks. I've also been chugging along in the physical realm, and have completed my patterns and prototype for my second look. I will be working in the lab all of spring break to get ahead on my looks, and hopefully get an additional two done during that week. I'm excited about what is all to come.
-Maria